If you have been reading my recent tweets, you might've known that I've been feeling down about my college course lately. After studying for about 2 months, I came to realize that it's not what I want to study. The whole course just seemed plain and boring to me.
I love fashion, makeup, art and stuff which are colourful. And I find that doing paperwork and research itself is just not my thing. Heck, I wouldn't even want to sit in an office all day long when I start to work! Also, as I took up an express course which finishes within 7 months, the amount of stress I had to go through is simply too much for me to handle. I'm not an irresponsible person, I can't just ignore the existing work you see... Moreover, as the stress gradually built up, it took a toll on my health. I was sleeping for only 4 hours per day for the past 2 months. I feel fatigue each day, there was never enough of sleep. A few weeks ago I went for a medical checkup and I was told that I'm sleep deprived and my body system shows that it's older than my age! Of course I tried to ignore it, but I saw signs of myself being over-stressed and aging. I had more white hair than ever and guess what, I'm starting to get fine line. (T T)
I reached my breaking point, and I decided to withdraw from all these stress. Ignore it, escape from it as much as I can. Yet the conflict within myself is so strong I can't bear but to cry each night, but that doesn't put me to sleep. I had to let myself relax by browsing through some memorial photos or drawings then only I could sleep.
I've talked to my parents about it and I thank God that they're understanding parents. :) My parents are helping me to go through this phase of my life :) It's financially hard for us to enable me to switch to another course after paying more than 10,000 of tuition fees for my current course. I know that it's my last shot on getting on the career path I wished for so I'm taking things slowly. You know they say, once you've fell down, you get up, and you'll be stronger. :)
Sorry for the long rant, I hope you don't mind (^^;) So these few days I've been staying at home instead of going to college. And today I had some free time so I thought I could play around with my Vita cosplay~! :D
Hi, I'm Vita and I'm one of the Wolkenritter from the series Magical Girl Lyrical Nanoha. They call me "Knight of the Iron Hammer" or "Crimson Iron Rider". I serve my mistress, Hayate Yagami. When I fight, I have my long time partner, Graf Eisen.
I love my bunny-ears-hat, aren't they cute?
But if you ever take it off me...
I'm going to let you taste my power!!!